Fear is an amazing emotion. While it does not hold the title of ” greatest emotion” such as love, its power and ability cannot be denied. Fear is often hard at work, pushing, pulling, motivating, limiting and stealing. #MyStory…… at first fear crippled me… then it paralyzed me but today I am walking out my freedom. Constantly becoming. Living, breathing, being…me.
In my first book I wrote a love letter to fear, it’s a praise to God and my reminder that I did not bring myself. #Godplusnothing
Cutting straight to the point, our love affair is over. For many of my yesterdays you held my hand, my heart, and my dreams. Your embrace was so tight and made me so uncomfortable that it forced me into a position of purpose. While you never told me that my light was worth shining or that I could live more than a subpar life, something on the inside would not let me fully commit to a lifetime with you. The truth is, with the last blow, you inflicted just the right amount of pain to wake me up and desire a future without you. I saw a preview of the coming attractions in my life and it fascinated me. I had a taste of what could be and it literally pulled my heart away. I must commend you for your persuasive abilities. Your sugary sweet lies captivated me. Nearly seduced me out of my destiny… BUT GOD! I know, I know, we broke up before and I invited you back. But that was before I saw a glimpse of my future AND the death of my legacy in a simultaneous glance. The control freak in me always sided with you because I liked the safety, certainty, and clarity of my (imperfect) comprehension. Today I thank you. The pain of your limits birthed an unexplainable passion to be free of any tie that binds me. WE ARE DONE. Christ thought I was worth dying for so it’s only right that I live for Him. His vision of me is worth any discomfort that comes with trusting what I cannot see. The P Word 7 Just know, I am telling everyone I meet about your illusive power and to steer clear of you. You can no longer buy my silence with your false sense of security. God did not give me a spirit of fear and now I believe it. I am done being a disappointment.
…. By the grace of God I survived the paralysis of fear. I am living proof that liberty from ties that bind are possible, that do-overs are conceivable, that God will give you a second chance for the 297th time.
Fear is expensive. What has it cost you? Time, money, love, a relationship with God? No more wasted moments. #Whilewaiting do not fear. I encourage you…. Trust God while you have time.
Marci Diane | Author, Blogger
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